Sharing

It's easy to keep gifts to yourself, especially when it seems that they may not be as valuable to others. Possibly the gift you feel is so special could feel less so if someone else were to not feel the same way you do about it. These are the lies of insecurity that I sometimes believe when the enemy throws them my way. I know I'm not the only one. I have people close to me who struggle with whether to chase after their dreams, for fear of many things…like failure or rejection. After a time illness and weakness during 2009, I recovered with a new gift. I don't know if I was just changed, no longer caring about eloquence or perfection, or if I received a gift from the Lord…or both. I was able to write songs…words and music. I could hear how I wanted the music should sound, and words came without the effort I had previously tried to put forth. This was something I had always wanted to be able to do. And it was a lifeline after being brought so low. It was the sweetness that came from experiences that left a bitter taste in my mouth. Even as I write about this, and as I continue to work at posting recordings of my songs online, I want to apologize for my lack of skill, my bad voice day, unprofessional recordings, and all sorts of other things that bother me. But, I know that they do not bother the heart of God, who has treasured my expressions of adoration. So, even though my resources are not what I need to make these songs "just right" for sharing, I am sharing. That is all I'm doing. Just sharing a gift, and hoping someone will be encouraged. So just click on the music tab to listen. I have three songs there, and hopefully I will get more on there this year.